Soulmates aren’t the ones who make you happiest, no. They’re instead the ones who make you feel the most. Burning edges and scars and stars. Old pains and pangs, captivation and beauty. Strain and shadows and worry and yearning. Sweetness and madness and dreamlike surrender. They hurl you into the abyss. They taste like hope.
We sit with our backs against a wall. But we do not sit comfortably. We are perched on an edge in between who we want to be and who we aren’t. We can not move one way or the other as we will hit a wall or fall off the edge. There is only balance. We must move sideways, parallel to the wall and the edge. We must move in unity with ourselves, both who we want to be and that which we do not.
But there are times when our balance is threatened and we are tossed too far to one side and we over correct causing us to fall farther. When our balance is altered we too become altered. A different mindset overwhelms us and suddenly it feels as if our actions are not our own. As if we are feeling emotions that we have no right to claim as our own.
It is possible to regain your balance all on your own. I have done so many times and each time it gets harder and harder to get back up. Every time you are down another piece of you gets lost in the climb back up.
But what about when you meet someone on your path? You can no longer move forward without going with them. A balancing act ensues as you test each other’s limits. Finding out how you work together as a team and what doesn’t work. Finding out that you don’t NEED each other to be happy but your happiness is improved because you WANt this person around. All of a sudden balance isn’t so hard.
You suddenly have two ledges to stand on. One for each foot. You begin to balance of each other. You will balance off the good day and the bad moods, all ever changing and shifting with no warning. One persons ledge becoming smaller but you stay firm. You wait patiently as both of you regain balance passing no judgment on the one who has fallen as everyone has fallen once and will continue to do so. It may take a few tries to regain that balance but that is okay. In the end there will always be balance and alignment and I will always be there for you as you are for me. Offering up your ledge to stand on.
"Align my heart, my body, my mind"
Everyone has a 2am and a 2pm personality. I’m more interested in the monster you become at 2am rather than the human being you pretend to be at 2pm.